Who is this not so normal gal?

Well, I’m not sure of what I may be trying to achieve here, but I guess I like to experience things that many people don’t. I honestly have no idea what I will write about. I’ll try to be interesting? I don’t think it is possible to be something you’re not, but we all may have a different opinion of who I am. I want to be the kind of person to write about what they think. I will probably write about anything that comes to my mind.

I don’t know if any of what I say will make any sense at all. First, you will see me through my eyes. Then, you can make your own conclusion or make none at this point (NO JUDGEMENT). This is clearly just for fun. I am a number person. Over the years I’ve learned that algorithms are the only things that survive life. I like knowing the outcome of things even though we never know. If I could formulate a solution to the problems I’ve had in life, I would. Throw anything at me, and I’ll make an equation out of it.

I don’t like to lose. I overreact to things. I am too calm about other things. I am woman who at times wants to be a man (this has nothing to do with my sexuality). I am a woman who hates men at times. BUT don’t get me wrong, I love people. I try to be the best person I can be. My feelings usually go second to others’. I believe in a higher power, but I don’t believe in religion. I believe in God, but I don’t believe in church. I think women ruin the image of other women, but I see myself as a person who believes in feminism. I am afraid of the world, but if you’re lucky enough to know me, you know that I am the most fearless person. I am a little bit of the opposite ends of almost any spectrum. I trust a lot, but I form a wall around me any time anyone tries to get near me. I love to dance. I love to read. I love to watch sports. I wish I could play my French Horn again. I overwork my body, but I am lazy at the same time. Maybe because I think that I can never be good enough for anything or anyone or myself. I also really love myself even when I say I don’t. I love the person I am. A mix of everything. Intelligent and stupid. Quick, sharp and full of “blonde” moments. Funny and sad (makes for a great comedian). Happy and angry.

I am the epitome of a walking paradox.

#me